Just For Now...

this was the first one.

I wish I could show you all just how special you all are. It took losing one to many people to realize that once your gone, thats it. All that's left is a memory a little glimpse back into a life that you once lead. If I told you just how special you are would you believe me? That in all the history of the world they could never and will never be another you? Would you take this all into consideration before deciding to give up?

I like to believe that you would that maybe something I've said to you sometime impacted you enough to realize just how loved you are just how needed you are. Even if you can't

see it on your own the reason is still there. Just

take some things in before you act, think, sleep on it just don't go on impulse. It could change everything.

I've Been There Before

I know what its like to feel hopeless how it feels to be low. But deep down inside somewhere you know just how beautiful life is. In your drearyness you can not see the beauty but only the ugly in this world, but in a way your right this world is ugly and cold and no one besides your self will ever care for you or be there for you when it comes down to it. But that doesn't mean you should turn yourself off from life. There are so many reasons to be alive.

It's the little

things that make the difference, you never really realize just how important you are, but in the end you are important, and you do impact people. It may feel like they don't see you or can't hear you

but they do, they just don't show it well. Countles

s times i've stayed up all night with people on the

phone listening to their problems and trying to talk them down, never really thinking anything of it till the one night i needed it most.

It took one phone call to a friend to realize

just how much i meant to people. "If it wasn't for you talking with me I wouldn't be alive" or "You saved my life by just showing that you cared". I don't see it, I don't even realize it what I mean to people. Sometimes people tell me I make

their day, or that they can always count on me and I'm glad they feel this way. They tell me they talk to me about things they could never say tosomeone else, they tell me I'm funny and make them laugh. I'm not funny or at least thats what I think.

People I don't even know sit next to me and tell me whats going on or whats wrong and I listen. Sometimes it bothers me but I wouldn't have it any other way. Well heres the thing I don't want compleme

nts or praise, I don't want your thanks instead of telling me what Ive done for you why don't you try to pass it on to someone else. Stay up all night with them, let someone call you. It takes one person to save a life, it takes one person to be a friend and sometimes that's all it takes.

I've come to this huge realization, that nothing in this life is guaranteed, that it's not really certain what will happen or how things will work out. Everyone has this generalization of a happy ending or that in end things will be good. But are you truly sure that will be the case or do you just hope it is the truth.

I don't know what I hope. All I know is that I believe that no matter how bad things are they could and will get wor

st but you have to make the best of what you have to work with; Cause in the end you only get what you get nothing more and nothing less. It's still your life and that makes it beautiful.

I recently cut if not most then half of my hair off, I love to shake things up. Lately I've been wanting to make a video for HOWTOSAVEALIFE.COM but it's not really coming together as well as I'd like it too. I've been working on this pen and ink in my art class it's coming along wonderfully eventually I hope to put a picture of it up here.

SO were going to get another snow storm we just got 31 inches on Saturday and now were getting somewhere around there tomorrow night into Wednesday. On a happier note Where The Wild Things Are is coming out on DVD March 2nd so save a place for it on your movie shelf.

And for all you gamers heres some news. This spring they are releasing a game for the xbox360 and PC featuring the characters from Left4Dead and Left4Dead2 combined into a game where they met up and work together. Its called "The Passing". There will be new levels, new uncommon and common infected, new firearms and malee weapons it should be sweet so be on the look out for that one also. Oh yeah if you ever want to play my gamer tag is FallenPrincesss.

I'm Brie Anna. I'm just this silly little girl that no one pays attention to, but I would love to change the world. Leave something insightful behind, really say something that will stick with people forever.

I wanted to write a book, make a movie, make a name for myself, unfortunately I don't see that ever happening. So all I have is this blog, and my words and a hope that maybe what I write will impact you in some way. I want to be a life changer. I want to make a difference.